I May Just Roll With It

This morning, when I failed yet again to wake up when the alarm went off, I came to a realization. I'm trying to do all of these things God wants me to do without questioning it. Is there a chance that He just wants me to stay up late at night and do my work rather than getting up in the morning to do it?

I would like to think not because I do so love the peace of the early morning, getting to see the sunrise and drinking coffee without hearing, "MOM" a thousand times. But why is it that no matter what I try, no matter how early I go to bed, I just can not get up?

So, tonight I am embracing the thought that I am and always will be a night owl. I will still have to get up in the morning with Bubba so I'm not going too overboard with this whole thing! I do have to say, it's not the same as early morning but it's still peaceful with him sleeping and Miss Mack at her Nana's for the night! I'm getting so much more done than I did all day!

What to Write?

If you blog, how do you decide what to write and how much to share? Today, I came across a post that really struck me because I was in nearly the same situation today with my own daughter. The reason this post jumped out of the screen at me is because this is a woman I admire and look up to for her professional accomplishments and yet she puts it right out there that she has days where she winds up yelling at her children.

As I put in my comments to her, I think it's easy to view other bloggers as being some sort of super human being who does no wrong. Other parents must have it all together and I'm the one who loses my cool with my kids. It's funny, we all think about the fact that we shouldn't judge others in a negative light, but isn't it almost as wrong to judge people into a more positive light, placing them on a pedestal?

After all, when you place someone else on a pedestal, you are in turn putting yourself in a position of inferiority to others. You are telling yourself that this other person is a better parent, wife, daughter, community member, etc. God is the only one in a position to judge and He knows what our place is.  If you truly feel inferior to others, perhaps the thing to do is take a moment and pray for Him to help you become the best person you can be.

So, that leaves me with the internal struggle of what to share and what to write. I don't want to come across as impersonal and insincere but I also don't want to write every personal struggle I have with my husband and children either. It's not that I don't want to share my humanity, it's just that there are some things that I don't feel like broadcasting.

From now on, I think the best thing to do is write from the heart and trust that what He wants me to write will be what comes out.  If He wants me to tell you all about how I failed at letting it go today, you will. If He chooses for me to write about my struggles with a very opinionated 5 year old, you'll hear about that too!

Do you form an image in your mind of how people you know online "just have to be" in real life?